I opened my box of creations and it turns out to be a painful one to close it, because my clients like "simpler" yet "attractive" outputs from me, not creative. I was really hurt and confessing now that I was not being able to take the rude behaviour from one of them. Still it was fun in a way, that in the entire session I had the liberty of choosing what and how to shoot. Despite their mild opposition, I pretended that I din't hear them and shot the entire set according to my choice; and voila!!!! I got 90% success. 10% missing because of my entire shoot din't go according to the plan. I had to change some of the concepts, because it was not suiting the model's features. What else, I got bored editing photos, cursed my purse for not being a casino jackpot machine, and lastly felt pitty on some people because they can be as freaky as they can spend an entire week in indecision.
There are people in this world (may be 'universe' is the more appropriate term, since our scientists found water on the moon), who are eligible enough to be a a judge of an indecision-society. They are choosy to the level of infinity, dumb because they have no sense of understanding art & creation and also a loser who thinks and tries to make lesser people believe that they are popular and talented. Believe me I have seen it throughout my photographic career that talent, nowadays does not have anything to do with the persons qualities. It has to do with your ability to sell your self (rather $#!t) and buy others attention at the cost of real currency. The more references you have, the more popular you are. Hows that sound, a real loser of me? Oh yes, that I am, because I can not sell my bad things to people, so I only sell things which are not bad, so less sale and less popularity.
Now lets talk some sense (as I was going real weired and abstract today). I had few assignments and now 30% of it is accomplished succesfully and after much hard work. Rest is due in February. About this assignment, I am greatful to my friend and famous model Mainak in Calcutta. I had full liberty from his end to go ahead with the shoot as I want and believe me guys, that is what a real creative person wants. Money matters, but only to some extent, what matters most is that whether you are being given the libery of go ahead with your mind and heart, both. Otherwise I din't take up photography for copy paste work.
I think that will be all, because the dosage of frustration is enough for now and I should also give you all some time to think about it. So, cheers and take care.
